What is Weight Loss Really About?

I was at my Weight Watchers meeting on Saturday.  It was a good day.  I had lost 2.8 pounds which brought my total loss to 47.8 pounds.  I was feeling good about being so close to 50 pounds lost.  I also got my 15 week charm.  And to top it all off my finace' reached his 10% loss goal.  Then I started to cry.

I had not planned on crying. There really wasn't anything to cry about really.  The leader was talking about a woman on the WW website who was 44 and started losing weight after discovering that her father died about the same age from the same heart condition that she had.  I thought - "I am 44.  And I decided to lose weight after it struck me that my mother was 56 when she died and that only 10 years with Tim was not going to be enough."  I started to tear up.  Not just moist eyes but real tears.

When you lose weight you are not just shedding weight you are shedding all the pain that made you put those doughnuts in your face.  I have been emotional eating all my life.  There is nothing pretty about it.  I hope to discover more about this.  What other emotions are going to come up?  Whatever they may be I am going to embrace them.  And certainly not eat about them.  My life has changed so I can have a long life.  I cry for my mom and I cry for me.  We both needed to love ourselves a lot more.